If only.

If only I could make wishes and they came true every time. If only I could have things go my way a bit more often. I would definitely be in a much different place than where I am now. I believe that God has a plan and everything happens for a reason, I just get so frustrated that I don't have the slightest clue as to what the reason might be. Why am I where I am? Why am I not where I want to be? Why am I so unsure of where I'm suppose to go or what I'm suppose to do? I hate having questions with no one there to answer them, story of my life. I hate not knowing. I know sometimes I might think that knowing everything that I know sucks at times, I'm glad I know all that I do. While it is true that ignorance is bliss, I don't think I would be one of those people blissfully ignorant, no, I know I wouldn't be one of those people blissfully ignorant folks. I am way to curious and ask too many questions. I hate the thought that the plan God may have for me might not match to the idea of what I want for myself. It kills me to even consider that, quite depressing really. So I try not to think so much about it, and I fail miserably. What to do? Until next week.

Tata! :)