When one falls asleep, speaking solely for myself, one usually thinks of what has gone on in their life, what is going on in their life, or what will occur. I don't know if I enjoy or loathe these moments, I guess I'm neutral, it depends on where my mind decides to go. Whenever it's in a past-tense mode I usually think of good memories, memories I wish didn't end or wish I could go back to. Usually once in a blue moon I might end up grazing a bad memory & I always reflect on the fact that it was never as bad as it was the moment that memory occurred in real life, thus making the memory not exactly bad but more of a harsh lesson. Now when I think of what is going on in my life at the present moment, that is when I am usually not in the best of spirits. I won't go into detail, but for me life should definitely be better. It'll never be perfect, to even hope for perfect would be juvenile on my part, but I do hope for a day when everything just isn't as hard or depressing or such a let down. This present-tense state of thinking usually brings me way down as I drift off to an alternate imagery in my head. Just to clarify, by no means am I being ungrateful. I know that whatever situation I am in now, it could be so much worse, and I am fortunate to be who, and where I am today, but sometimes due to my circumstances I would love to send a message to life and say "SUCK IT!", but I digress. Usually the present-tense would automatically lead me into what will or could happen in my future, and this for me is a happier time of thought. I get to choose what can happen. This is the time I think up things for my future, whether it be my immediate future or a long-term thing. Just last night I was thing maybe I should attempt to write a book. I was even thinking of the first sentence, what would I say. Something that'll catch the reader and draw them in. Of course there are many factors into doing something like that and I'm still pondering on the idea.
I wonder, what does one call that period of time when you lay down to drift off to sleep? I was thinking maybe that was the pre-lude to the flashbacks they say you get when you are about to die. I never understood that theory. Speaking for myself, if I'm about to die, yes my life may cross my mind but a whole flashback of it? I think not. Mostly what'd be on my mind, is where am I going once I take my last breath, but again I digress. So a question to whoever's reading this, What is it that goes through your head this period of time as you are drifting of to sleep? or even when you just sit or lay down to relax for a bit, what are you thinking?
Penny for your thoughts? Also if you were about to die, what would be your last thought or imagery?
'til next time,
Ciao! :-)
